I get choked up thinking that as of today, my little Jovie is four years old… She was my gift straight from the hand of God that picked me up out of my years of infertility, and sent me into this wild ride of motherhood.
I chuckle thinking about how God answers our prayers in ways we cannot even imagine, because she is so much more than I ever asked for. She is the most outgoing, cheerful, kind, sweet, intelligent, imaginative, and funny little girl.
I love that she marches to her own beat. I love that she is a trail-blazer and champions her own ideas. I love that she laughs with no reservations, I love that she calls everyone “Honey”, I love that she’s determined, and I love that she loves people.
I remember the day we heard her heartbeat for the first time. I cried. I remember when we went to our first ultrasound and I saw her little fingers for the first time. I tried not too, but I cried. I remember that long night of labor, I was so tired, but when they put her little body on my chest for the first time, I cried.
I cannot express what I experienced having thought that I would never in my life, get those opportunities. And yet, there I was, and there she was. My baby. My miracle.
In everything I write about being a mom, my heart is never far from women who are still waiting for their miracle. I have experienced my prayers become reality but I have not forgotten those years when I could not see the end. When my biological clock was ticking louder and louder with each passing year. When I faced disappointment month after month ’til I thought I might break.
I have not forgotten the pain of a miscarriage on that cold, sunny day. Or the journal pages filled with prayers and pleas to God for a baby. Just one.
While these memories hurt, they are who I am. They are my story.
If I can whisper a little inspiration to you, let it be this: don’t close your book if you don’t like where it’s at, you never know what the next chapter might bring. Embrace faith and hold onto hope. Your wild ride might be right around the corner…
“Call unto me and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things which you know not.” Jeremiah 29:11 (AKJV)